twisted|sunday

disentangling my biological wiring short-circuits

Thursday, October 20, 2005

overworked and underpaid

"educ ka, di ba?"
*tatango*
"magtuturo ka talaga pagka-graduate mo?"


putcha, retarded ka ba? e anu ba gusto mong gawin ko? magtinda ng tocino, Avon, at herbal supplements? (not that it's a bad thing ah.) kung ako lang e tarantado at kalahati, tiyak na uumagahin sa pagpupulot ng mga ngipin n'ya kung sino man ang nagtanong nun. oo, ni sa hinagap ay 'di ko inisip kumuha ng educ, lalu na siguro ang maging maestra. bakit? dahil nasa linya din ng pagtuturo ang tatay ko, at dahil me pagkarebelde ang lola n'yo, ayokong mabuhay sa anino n'ya. kumbaga, gusto kong me mapatunayan, sa sarili kong sikap. isa pa, 'di lingid sa atin kung gaano lang ang suweldo ng isang guro, kung ikukumpara sa kamal-kamal na salaping nakukuha ng isang halal na opisyal. sabi nga nila: "walang pera sa pagtuturo. 'di ka yayaman dun." pero nung medyo napariwara sa maynila, wala na akong nagawa kundi tanggapin at sundin ang gusto ng tatay ko. (beggars can't be choosers, ika nga.) halos lahat ng naging kaklase ko sa bisu e hindi rin gustong mag-educ, pero dahil hindi pinalad makapasok sa ibang kurso, dito nabagsak. 'yung iba, mala-telenovela ang buhay: suma-sideline sa pagtitibag ng bato, pinapaaral ng isang kamag-anak, service crew sa fastfood chain, nag-aararo ng lupa bago pumasok. kung 'di ka iskolar ng barangay, pinapaaral ka ng admin dahil magaling kang atleta. kaya 'di ko rin sila masisisi kung magmahalimaw man sila sa pag-aaral dahil nakataya 'di lamang ang sarili nilang buhay, kundi pati na din ang kinabukasan ng pamilya nila. pero tulad ng problemang nadadaan sa kembot, nagawa kong magustuhan ang pagtuturo, kahit medyo nagdalawang-isip ako kung kelan pa umabot na 'ko sa pagiging isang student teacher (dahil sa hirap, 'di pala 'to joke). 'di ko na din masisisi 'yung mga taong nagkakabit ng 'di magandang impresyon sa CoEd. madali nga namang mag-comment 'pag wala ka sa loob, pero 'wag mong asahang tama ka sa lahat. kaya bago pa 'ko maburaot, iintindihin na lang muna kita. nakakaawa ka.

Monday, October 10, 2005

ATTENTION!

Película
Pelikula
4th Spanish Film Festival
(Greenbelt 1, September 29-October 16 2005)

SCHEDULE:

October 10, Monday

2:00 pm
3:00 pm La Buena Estrella
4:30 pm El Abrazo Partido
5:30 pm Nadie Hablara de Nosotras Cuando Hayamos Muerto
7:00 pm Subterra
8:00 pm Soldados de Salamina
9:30 pm Abre Los Ojos

October 11, Tuesday

2:00 pm
3:00 pm Los Lunes Al Sol
4:30 pm Extranjeras
5:30 pm Tesis
7:00 pm Planta 4a
8:00 pm Dias Contados
9:30 pm La Flaqueza del Bolchevique


October 12, Wednesday

2:00 pm
3:00 pm El Bola
4:30 pm La Ley de Herodes
5:30 pm Crimen Ferpecto
7:00 pm Noviembre
8:00 pm Te Doy Mis Ojos
9:30 pm El Abrazo Partido


October 13, Thursday

2:00 pm
3:00 pm Soldados de Salamina
4:30 pm Subterra
5:30 pm Torremolinos 73
7:00 pm Intacto
8:00 pm Todo Sobre Mi Madre
9:30 pm Abre Los Ojos


October 14, Friday

2:00 pm
3:00 pm Dias Contados
4:30 pm Astronautas
5:30 pm Los Lunes Al Sol
7:00 pm El Juego de la Verdad
8:00 pm Te Doy Mis Ojos
9:30 pm La Ley de Herodes


October 15, Saturday

2:00 pm Subterra
3:00 pm El Bola
4:30 pm Noviembre
5:30 pm Te Doy Mis Ojos
7:00 pm Planta 4a
8:00 pm Torremolinos 73
9:30 pm Mar Adentro


October 16, Sunday

2:00 pm El Bosque Animado
3:00 pm Todo Sobre Mi Madre
4:30 pm Hector
5:30 pm Soldados de Salamina
7:00 pm AUDIENCE CHOICE
8:00 pm La Buena Estrella
9:00 pm El Juego de la Verdad

WARNING!

Película
Pelikula
4th Spanish Film Festival
(Greenbelt 1, September 29-October 16 2005)

The biggest showcase of Spanish cinema in Southeast Asia. 26 Spanish and Latin-American films comprise the lineup of this year's edition of Pelikula, organized by Instituto Cervantes.

Mar Adentro Sea Inside (A. Amenábar, 2004)
A film about death that is extraordinarily life-affirming. Winner, Best Foreign Language Film 2005 at the Academy and Golden Globe Awards. Winner of 14 Goyas in 2005 including Best Film, Best Director, and Best Screenplay.

Soldados de Salamina (D. Trueba, 2002)
A writer comes to terms with her own life as she uncovers the incredible story of a Spanish Civil War fascist writer. Winner, Best Cinematography at the 2002 Goya Awards; with 7 Goya nominations.

Planta 4a Fourth Floor (A. Mercero, 2004)
A bittersweet tale about adolescent cancer patients; this film soars on the excellent performance of its young cast. Nominee for Best Film, Goya Awards.

Te doy mis ojos Take my Eyes (I. Bollaín, 2004)
Complex characters face issues of domestic violence. An uncommonly perceptive drama. Winner: Best Director, Best Film, Best Actor, and Best Screenplay at the 2004 Goya Awards. (for adults only)

Torremolinos 73 (P. Berger, 2003)
A snapshot of domestic sexuality in Franco’s puritanical Spain in the 70s. 2004 Goya nominee for Best Director and Best Actor. (for adults only)

El Abrazo Partido (D. Burman, 2004)
A charming comedy about Jewish life in Argentina and a man’s inability to forgive an absent father. Winner at the Berlin International Film Festival and Bangkok World Film Festival.

La Buena Estrella (R. Franco, 1997)
A middle-aged butcher takes in a one-eyed woman as his charge. His life takes on a different turn from there. Winner of 5 Goya Awards including Best Film and Best Director. (for adults only)

Los Lunes Al Sol Mondays in the Sun (F. León, 2002)
The story of those with no job, whose days are a constant Sunday. This film won the Golden Shell at the San Sebastian Film Festival and achieved 5 Goya Awards; Best Film and Best Director among them.

El Bola (A. Mañas, 2000)
A magnificent drama about the life of a battered child. Winner of 25 Spanish and International Prizes, among them 4 Goya Awards including Best Film and Best Actor.

Tesis Thesis (A. Amenábar, 1996)
Open your eyes, not to violence, but to what it means. Considered the first commercial success by the acclaimed director of Mar Adentro. Won the 1997 Goya Awards for Best Film and Best New Director. (for adults only)

Noviembre (A. Mañas, 2003)
A pseudo-documentary on the rise and fall of a radical Madrid street-theatre troupe, an utterly unclassifiable delight. 3 nominations at the 2004 Goya Awards.

El Bosque Animado (A. de la Cruz & M. Gómez, 2001)
A cartoon about the magical Cecebre forest both kids and adults will definitely enjoy! Winner of Best Animation Film and Best Original Song, 2002 Goya Awards.

La Ley de Herodes (L. Estrada, 1999)
A savage satire of political corruption. Received 9 Ariel Awards in 2000; Best Direction and Best Screenplay among them. (for adults only)

La Flaqueza del Bolchevique The Weakness of the Bolshevik (M.M. Cuenca, 2003)
Bitter banker Pablo gets into a fender bender with wealthy and snooty Sonsoles. He decides to make her life miserable. Winner, Best New Actress at the 2004 Goya Awards. (for adults only)

Astronautas (S. Amodeo, 2004)
Watch the story of a junkie who calls himself “astronaut”. A deadpan comedy proving that starting over in life can be terrible and hilarious at the same time. 2005 Goya nominee for Best New Actress and Best New Director.

Crimen Ferpecto Perfect Crime (A. de la Iglesia, 2005)
Who knew a film set in the world of the department store sales could be wickedly entertaining? A must-see caustic black comedy. 6 Goya nominations including Best Special Effects and Best Director. (for adults only)

El Juergo de la Verdad The Truth and Other Lies (A. F. Armero, 2004)
Director Fernández Armero fiddles with the game of love and lies in this light and engaging couples comedy. One of the best comedies of the year! (for adults only)

Héctor (G. Querejeta, 2004)
Tells the tender and tragic story of Héctor, whose mother dies and whose father comes from Mexico to try to reconnect with him. Nomination for 4 Goyas including Best Original Score, Best Actress, and Best Actor.

Todo Sobre Mi Madre All About My Mother (P. Almodóvar, 1999)
A heart-breaking paean to femininity. Winner of the 2000 Academy and Golden Globe Awards Best Foreign Film. Winner of 7 Goyas. Garnered 40 awards all around the world. (for adults only)

Dias Contados Running Out of Time (I. Uribe, 1994)
A thought-provoking political thriller on the timely issues of Basque independence and terrorism. Winner of 9 Goyas in 1995 including Best Director, Best Film, and Best Actor. (for adults only)

Subterra (M. Ferrari, 2003)
A romance that tells of an 1897 coal mine uprising sparked by one courageous man. Winner of Best Director, Best Photography, and Audience Award at the Huelva Latin American Film Festival in 2003.

Abre Los Ojos (A. Amenábar, 1997)
A mind-bending plot that keeps you guessing until the end. See the irresistible movie that prompted Hollywood to make Vanilla Sky. Nominated for 10 Goya Awards including Best Film and Best Director. (for adults only)

Barrio (F. León de Aranoa, 1998)
A fresh take on the adolescent quest for identity in a troubled setting of family strife, petty crime, drugs, and marginalization. Winner of 3 Goyas – Best Director and Best Screenplay among them.

Nadie Hablará de Nosotras Cuando Hayamos Muerto (A. Díaz Yanes, 1995)
Escaping gangsters trying to kill her, Gloria heads back home with details of a dirty mob secret. Has she picked the right hiding place? Winner of 8 Goyas in 1996 including Best Film. (for adults only)

Intacto (J. C. Fresnadillo, 2001)
Is there an underground world of people who gamble against one another with their respective destinies as the resulting prize? Luck, good and bad, ensues. Winner of 2 Goya Awards – Best New Director and Best New Actor.

Extranjeras (H. Taberna, 2003)
Taberna’s camera follows women immigrants of all ages and cultures in Madrid in this interesting documentary on the challenges faced by immigrants of Spain today.

*pasasalamat kay dylan para sa brochure. kelan ba tayo manunuod? Ü

Friday, October 7, 2005

i wanna be sedated

*i came across a book one lazy afternoon at the national bookstore (sm north edsa). it was about famed Filipino writers raving about their most loved poems. among these were: 'the raven' by edgar allan poe; 'the love song of j. alfred prufrock' by t.s. eliot; 'orpheus, eurydice, hermes' by rainer maria rilke'; 'to earthward' by robert frost; 'isang dipang langit' by amado v. hernandez; 'fern hill' by dylan thomas; and 'ygUDuh' & 'it may not always be so, and i say' by ee cummings. and then, there was this: poem no. 17 by jose garcia villa. read on..

I can no more hear Love's
Voice. No more moves
The mouth of her. Birds
No more sing. Words
I speak return lonely.
Flowers I pick turn ghostly.
Fire that I burn glows
Pale. No more blows
The wind. Time tells
No more truth. Bells
Ring no more in me.
I am all alone singly.
Lonely rests my head.
—— O my God! I am dead.

Tuesday, October 4, 2005

..but there's too many egos left to bruise*

"the space between
what's wrong and right
is where you'll find me hiding,
waiting for you."
['the space between', dave matthews band]


sabi mo, "ikaw ang naglagay sa sarili mo diyan. ikaw ang nagpababa sa sarili mo." 'di na 'ko nakaapila. daig ko pa ang na-knockout ni manny pacquiao sa unang round. pero kasalanan ko ba? mali ba 'yung makuntento sa kung anu 'yung kaya lang n'yang gawin at ibigay kahit na alam mo sa sarili mo na you deserve much more than that? dahil kahit na ipilit mo 'yun e 'di naman n'ya gagawin? mali bang magsabi minsan na "pagod na ko" o kaya e "di ko naiintindihan"? mali bang magbigay kahit na hindi ka naman nanghihingi ng anumang kapalit? mali bang sumagot ng "hindi ko alam"? kailangan bang laging ipaliwanag kung bakit ka nasaktan o nagalit, na kung tutuusin, dapat isang tingin lang e naiintindihan na n'ya? masakit makarinig ng totoo, pero mas masakit kung manggagaling sa taong matagal mong itinangi. para bang walang saysay 'yung hirap na pinagdaanan n'yo para lang umabot kayo sa kung nasaan man kayo ngayon. lagi ko pang sinasabi, matitiis ko ang mga latay sa katawan, 'wag lang ang talim ng dila. siguro nga kasalanan ko. itinuro ko sa 'yo ang daan papunta sa itaas. 'di ka na bumaba.

*mula sa ‘generator’ ng foo fighters