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Kurt Donald Cobain

(February 20, 1967 – April 5, 1994)

i spent all day watching a downloaded copy of nirvana's MTV unplugged sessions. my brother & i, up to now, are still in denial as to how an icon like him was found dead sporting a self-inflicted shotgun wound buried in his skull. of course we were aware that he has been struggling with drugs for quite a while, which will eventually lead to his demise, but we were not prepared of it happening abruptly.

i was in fourth grade when i started listening to nirvana. being a 90's child, i was lured to soundgarden, smashing pumpkins, pearl jam, & stone temple pilots, hence, a "grunge" baby. kurt was right beside me as i was treading through the "shark"-infested waters of high school & college, and my love affair with him didn't stop with his death: i then passed it on to my 2 younger brothers. i guess the only way to live through a tragedy like this is to live well (in my case, not really hehe), carrying his memory with my day-to-day existence.

i'm turning 27 this august (just like kurt, when he passed away) at napapaisip tuloy ako sa kung anu ang mangyayari sa 'kin ngayong taon na 'to. wala naman akong banda (frustrated musician ata 'to) at puwera na lang sa paglaklak ko ng banig-banig na alaxan 'pag masakit ang katawan ko, wala din naman akong "addiction" na matatawag. sige na nga, pedi siguro 'yung walang habas na pagyoyosi't pagmumumog ng serbesa't vodka, pero tumitigil naman ako 'pag wala nang anda (hehe). kidding aside, ngayong tumatanda na 'ko, mas dumadami ang takot at tamang-hinala sa sarili at sa mga bagay-bagay. ewan ko ba. ayoko na lang i-analisa masyado't medyo nakakapagod. ibang blog entry na 'yun.

maiba lang, siguro kung buhay pa si kurt ngayon, nangunguna sha sa pagkutya sa mga emong naka-one-side-to-the-left at mga revival beauties. kulit lang.

*salamat, kurt. at tulad nga ng sinabi mo sa kantang jesus don't want me for a sunbeam: "don't expect me to cry for all the reasons you had to die.." ok ok, i hear ya.