under the waves in the blue of my oblivion

*napapagod na 'kong mag-isip kaya kakanta na lang muna ako.*

never is a promise
fiona apple

you'll never see -- the courage i know
its colors' richness won't appear within your view
i'll never glow -- the way that you glow
your presence dominates the judgements made on you

but as the scenery grows, i see in different lights
the shades and shadows undulate in my perception
my feelings swell and stretch; i see from greater heights
i understand what i am still too proud to mention -- to you

you'll say you understand, but you don't understand
you'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye
but never is a promise, and you can't afford to lie

you'll never touch -- these things that i hold
the skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
you'll never feel the heat of this soul
my fever burns me deeper than i've ever shown -- to you

you'll say, don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems
you'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high
but never is a promise and you can't afford to lie

you'll never live the life that i live
i'll never live the life that wakes me in the night
you'll never hear the message i give
you'll say it looks as though i might give up this fight

but as the scenery grows, i see in different lights
the shades and shadows undulate in my perception
my feelings swell and stretch, i see from greater heights
i realize what i am now too smart to mention -- to you

you'll say you understand, you'll never understand
i'll say i'll never wake up knowing how or why
i don't know what to believe in, you don't know who i am
you'll say i need appeasing when i start to cry
but never is a promise and i'll never need a lie